I hate looking in the mirror right now, so why not post it on social media for everyone to see? My blog is called Real Life Things for a reason, and for me, this is pretty darn real. Disclaimer: This isn’t a love your body post (which I totally 100% agree you should! I’m blessed to be alive and able bodied! I also know the amazing miracle my body created and am so unbelievably grateful and thankful for that (it does not go unnoticed)! I also know that I am not my body, I am much more. So please do not take this as I’m being ungrateful, but merely being honest about my feelings and thoughts towards my physical appearance at the moment)..// I currently feel defeated…. I worked so hard for years to be in shape and with that for me, came confidence. I loved my body, I felt great in clothes, didn’t mind wearing tighter fitting items, never cared if my arms were showing and never really thought twice about what to wear. Now, all of that has completely changed. I look in the mirror not recognizing the person looking back at me. Where did all my hard work go? In the blink of an eye my body COMPLETELY changed. I feel like I’m living in a strangers body. Physically, who is this person? I feel like a prisoner. I don’t know them. I wear oversized shirts to hide underneath, with leggings that hold everything in, just to feel comfortable going in public. I was putting on an old pair of jeans on the other day, and could barely button them. I looked in the mirror and almost started crying. I made a post about how the physical changes didn’t bother me as much as I thought they were going to and at the time, that was true, but now, they do. I’m getting impatient and angry. Everyone always says “Oh, when you breastfeed the weight just melts off!” Well, I’m here to tell you that isn’t the case for me. Not one bit. Diet and exercise aren’t moving the scale just yet. And believe me, I know it doesn’t happen overnight. But, seeing no real progress yet is difficult and frustrating. Mentally, emotionally and physically. I know I will have people rolling their eyes at me, but this is MY reality, no one else. To anyone out there feeling guilty about not quite loving your body at the moment, you are not alone. You are allowed to have these feelings and thoughts. BUT if you’re anything like me, you’re too stubborn to just sit back and accept it for what it is. I am determined. And now, this has become a challenge. A challenge that I will fight to win and overcome. Every small win gets me one step closer to my goal. If you need support, reach out! We got this!
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